Selfless Love

I learnt to love myself once more, discard the isolated self, and regained Self love and gradually developed selfless love.

First come first, I started to re-appreciate myself as a person who is worthy of love. Once this was achieved, I took a step further, and through a natural course, learned to provide love at zero expectation for returns.

The basic line to live a life is probably beginning from self (Intrisic). A person needs to be sufficed with love to live to the fullest. Yet, to expect love to be provided by another, is asserting pressure on own and others. The simplest way is to self-supply, by simple method of self appreciation.

The strength that love can help you along the rocky path, is not to be belittled. It made me strong. I then managed to, and wanted to love people the way I love myself. I do not instruct people how to love me, but I would rather show people how I love them. Some may feel my sincere heart, some may not. This is not too much a concern to me now. I do not manipulate people, I merely manage my thoughts. I leave people with their rights to choose to be touched or to ignore.

My concern is my ability and capability to express love.

Love doesn't hurt, it heals pain. Love doesn't punishes, love forgives. Love appreciates, and be appreciated. Love doesn't expect, love fulfills.

One of my favorite quotes:
"No one pushes the river, it flows just fine by its own"

I imagined myself gliding along the river flow, and picking up the goodness along the ride. Rocky and steep it may sometimes be, but I don't stop at the less preferred stage, I let it flows on.. As long as there is movement, there is hope for better life. Get past with the bad element, be washed by the river water, ready yourself to receive the goodness of challenges.

Choose to love life, live to love.

Review Your Attitudes

Was put on a emotional roller coaster ride today..

Well spent part of the morning, trying to figure out what, how and when I was put on the ride. hahaa

So I struggled to figure out what was the problem? and how I've got myself trapped in such a situation, whereby I can't find a solution to resolve this problem.

Ahha...!!!

What is 'Problem'?? No problem is too big a problem, until we made them one, when we amplify it. If there is really a problem, and it generates from me, I am certain I can solve it, for problems are meant to be solved. So, what if the problem can't be solved solely by me?

I am willing to solve it, but if my solo effort can't do any help, and yet the other concerned party choose to adopt ostrich problem-solving method? by burying the head to the ground and hide away, thinking that problem is non-existence by covering up own eyes...

Shall I get all upset? Or just 'let go'... It's not a problem anymore, at least it's no longer my problem.

I feel inadequate, but I need to distinguish this away from other emotions. Once get them all confused, I am on the way to depression!!

Today's ride taught me:
-Identify the owner of problem
-Identify the behavior and attitude of the owner
-Remind owner, who adopted ostrich method 'Hey, don't let mental block gets on the way'
-If gentle reminder doesn't help, try this==> 'Hey, is your head too comfy down in the ground? Get stuck by all means!'

Am I being mean? I ached too much for loser's behavior, sometimes, my subtle approach becomes a comfy bed that encourages such behavior, as they take it for granted.. Now.. I need to throw some pain on them...

Actually.. a person only review their problem-solving method, if the problem is big enough to impact them hard, otherwise, what I consider huge, may be tiny to them to even try doing anything...

Huh.. emotion coaster ride... very taxing activity... but.. really exciting, and I'm not fearful

I just need more wisdom to counter each ride

Positive Thoughts Formula

Have we not learnt the formula in mathematics subject, negative multiplies by negative equals positive? I wonder if this was developed from Real Minds operation.

If we 'add' negative thoughts with more negative thoughts, we would probably still get a higher negative figure. (eg. -5 + -5 = -10)

However, if we multiply negative figure by another negative figure, we would get a high positive figure (eg. -5 x -5 = 25)

The difference is by escalating the process of mind thoughts.

Before they sink in deep down our minds and grew bigger in size, we can 'choose' to convert such negativity in successive stages development, to a high positive thoughts.

I was amazed myself with such development in mind, when I was almost grabbed in complete control of negative power.

I realized that I had been led on, throughout the day, by the shadow of blues.

Facing a problem, I zoomed in in details, so much so that my small problem developed to such big patch that I overlooked many other issues.

Soon, this small problem grew so huge, 'truth' and 'goodness' became further in reach.

I 'choose' to zoom out and look at this in a wider picture, see issues in the eyes of your view.

My gracious! This was just a small dot in the big picture.

The 'truth' (which I chose to believe in positive light) and 'goodness' revealed in their forms effortlessly.

I had verified the 'new-born' positive conclusion with you, and was glad, I saved myself in time.

How close was I to have ruined a precious and wonderful relationship with my own 'assumptions'.

How would I have displayed my wrong assumptions across to you, should I not arrived in deeper thoughts?

Would my upset tone in voice disrupt proper understanding?

Would my negative responses lead to your undesirable reactions?

Thank goodness! Only by arriving at zero substance in mind, cleaned and cleared, was I able to sense and decipher the genuine understanding of complicated feelings.

My choice is always not to run away and hide away, only confronting problems solve problems.

Keep an open mind to accept the outcome of each confrontation.

In my opinion, nothing is going to be so bad, as long as the problem get rectified.

This move itself, is already good. 'Choose' goodness.

Yes, we need to 'sense' movement in the flow of river, and not get 'stucked' in the still water.

We need not push the river, as it flows just fine by itself, but we should remain 'aware and conscious' of the flow and current.

Appreciating Goodness

Poem of Tears

Alone in the streets

Warm breeze swept the cheeks

Warm air surrounds

Coldness within

Busy people buzzle by

Yet lonesome felt within

Warm tears streaming down cheeks

Curious eyes check

Plenty of questions why

Yet all answers shy

Tears wonder why

Emotions never lie

Wish for wings to fly

Above the sky so high

Only soul knows why

The hearts never tie

Pain felt by the soul

No one knows the woes

Once beautiful the soul

Now ugly as the rampaged soil

Poem of Pain

Crying in the streets

Relief, hopes to seek

Relief of pain

Believe to gain

Growing is the pain

Self-inflicted injury is gained

Physical destruction to gain pain

Hoping to relieve emotional pain

The wound is bleeding

The heart is also bleeding

Physical blood felt bodily warm

Yet emotion blood felt icy cold

Walking to the end

Hoping to gain the sense

Strangely, the injury felt nothing

Yet, the pain of the wounded heart is growing

Pain, voluminous yet weightless

The volume rises while the weight dips

Pain, blinds my vision

Pain, deafens my hearing

Pain, dumbs my speech

Pain, numbs my nerves

Poem of Memories

My love once said "Everything passes away "

However, memories never pass away

Memories... A part of everyone

Memories... Live in everyone

Memories be built on love

Memories be built on hatred

A thin line separates

yet cast drastic effects

My memory of you was the birth of the love

Yet such beautiful memory was mudered by hatred

If all things should end

It should end with love

As it begins with love

My forgiving nature promotes your cruelty

The cruelty to crush every bit of loving memory to death

These memories, I so cherished once

These memories, so harmless and hard earned

These memories... I was willing to die for

Yet incapable to survive upon your punches

For them, I lived

For them, I believed

For them, I loved

Once upon a time, they were the only source to cheer me up

Today, they are the result of your heartless cruelty

Once, even in your absence, they brought me smiles

Now, in your silence, they brought me tears

My memory of honey, so tastily sweet

Now, it is as sour as the lemon may be

Now

We may make plans for the future, for it is wise to set objectives and goals, to provide direction of our journey ahead.

We may review events of the past, for it is important to learn from our past, to better ourselves and improve on our weaknesses.

Set plans in wider scope, not in detailed planning, for plans are not meant to be realised accordingly. No plans are foolproof, therefore, it should be vague, but a flag stalking move to position yourself well to pursuing your dream. 'Time' is always the greatest challenge to fulfilling dreams.

'Past' only serves as memory to be reviewed. Confronting 'Past', we are helpless, for we can't do anything about it, yet it is such important stage we all have to go through, for it made us what we are now. 'Time' has served its duty to accomplish each person's past.

'Now' is what we can do. A fast decisive move decides this moment, even time has not enough time to stop you. The only power we have over time is 'Now', not the future, not the past. Then, we realised how quickly, everything moves on once again. Grab 'Now', don't let it pass without doing your best.