View From Window

It's half past 7 in the evening..

The sky was colored a bright orange

What a sight not to be missed

In a second, memories raced through my mind

Not wasting the beautiful sight, I grabbed my digicam, thus the birth of this page

How many times have I looked out of this window view

How many changes in the background have been seen?

This MRT track which I had taken train rides countless of times on

Yet now, how different do I feel looking at it

from a distance.. from my window...

A view so familiar..

Yet I had not grown tired of

Sometimes, it stands out gloomy at dawn

Sometimes, the colorful purplish orange brings out your down moods

The path underneath the track..

A track I take everyday

A track that leads me to the train station

How simple things build up our memories

ahh... how many simple things have we missed remembering?

Only if we can capture every moment in life

Who needs solemn moods to die with when we grow old?

Only if we can grab every moment now

We have no worries of the lack of our very own slideshows to reminisce in old age

I am still collecting and creating mine...

What about you??

Today

It was merely an expression of what I felt at that moment..

I would have failed myself if I allowed myself not even tried. If I don't tell you 'today', I am afraid if 'tomorrow' stood up on me and never arrive, I will never get a chance.

If I get pass 'today' without doing my best for 'today', I would miss out 'today', and it becomes 'yesterday', remained incomplete, and 'yesterday' was a past I can't do anything about anymore. If I put off things to 'tomorrow', what if 'tomorrow' won't come?

If I don't do it now, when?

There is not a trace of fear in me, as I have confronted all my fears. The only small fear that I have no confrontation power is.. towards tomorrow.

Now I wake up my eyes every morning, feel blessed, that I still wake up to a day. So I will live today fully. And count my blessings every morning.

When tomorrow arrives, I spend small time rethinking about today, it would still be a good day, because I have colored everyday complete.

May all sleep well tonight, wake up fresh tomorrow.

Now

We may make plans for the future, for it is wise to set objectives and goals, to provide direction of our journey ahead.

We may review events of the past, for it is important to learn from our past, to better ourselves and improve on our weaknesses.

Set plans in wider scope, not in detailed planning, for plans are not meant to be realised accordingly. No plans are foolproof, therefore, it should be vague, but a flag stalking move to position yourself well to pursuing your dream. 'Time' is always the greatest challenge to fulfilling dreams.

'Past' only serves as memory to be reviewed. Confronting 'Past', we are helpless, for we can't do anything about it, yet it is such important stage we all have to go through, for it made us what we are now. 'Time' has served its duty to accomplish each person's past.

'Now' is what we can do. A fast decisive move decides this moment, even time has not enough time to stop you. The only power we have over time is 'Now', not the future, not the past. Then, we realised how quickly, everything moves on once again. Grab 'Now', don't let it pass without doing your best.

Love Is Strength

To Live is to Feel, To Feel is to Love..

Look around you and you find children everywhere. Do they not look happy and innocently naive? Did we all not been through the days of no worries? Among the happy children, there are some distraught ones that only sadness is seen in their eyes.

All sadness derives from the absence of love.

When a couple bring a new life, what are their mindsets and objectives? Have they considered well enough deep in their hearts and souls, what they can bring out a child with?

All lives feel, and grow to feel. This is what life is all about. When we detach ourselves from feelings, and emotions, we are just zombies living out in the empty shells. If we allow ourselves to descend to this stage, why produce another innocent life to live life our pathetic way?

The folk's trait of 'A family is only complete with children', surely has contributed greatly to more sad, unfulfilled lives of today's world. The spiritual attainment is out of reach with the minds lose their grounds, detaching from the genuine truth of living.

To begin with... A family bond begins with the 2 persons, who are the key elements to form a family bonding.

To start from the right foot, they have to love each other deep enough, so much so that it grows large enough to extend their devotion of love to another new life of their own.

In a box, human are bound with duties and responsibilities to carry on their family line. Some hope to have a child in order to secure their partners (these people probably don't have enough faith and trust, let alone love for each other), the question here is, why is the child a tool to tie them up in the first place? Human must first establish their own grounds before bring a new life around them. They may love each other, but secure own selves first in order to prepare a new path for a new born.

Be fair to our seed of love. The child is not to be responsible for the love-ship of the parents, but turning it around. The parents are liable to what this child may become. The relationships between human are never a simple mathematical sum. We have to deal with it separately. The love you have for your partner is different from the parental love for your child. They are intertwined, but it moves in a circular motion, and one affects another. The main energy generates from the 2 elements, if they stay strong and emits love, the secondary (child) will receive and respond accordingly, and enhance the whole environment.

It's a shame, if the only stories you can share with your child are simply fairy tales or books from some authors whom you don't even know about. These kids' reading stuff instill knowledge to the child, while your true life stories which posses a direct connection to him/her induce wisdom of life. It will live with the child. The child will feel secure in heart/mind/soul when he knows where and how he come to. He will feel proud to be the offspring of a great love.

Child born in genuine love grows up stronger, secured and caring. He can feel and willing to care, and understand love exists in all forms.

On the other hand, if we ever thought of getting a child to bond a relationship, think deeper... The child is likely to grow up feeling responsible and stress out, as the parents have heavily loaded the responsibilities of family maintenance to him, instead of embracing the love a family can offer.

The child born under such great responsibilities is likely to grow up to be an insecure person, hesitant to love, little understanding or misunderstanding what love and emotion are all about. He is likely to live with uncertainties and low confidence, as all relationships seem confused to him.

Look into our childhood, and know why we are what we were. I won't point accusing finger to my parents, but I thank God for letting me understand things beyond my parents knowledge, so that I will not put my child to what I struggled through. I shall live life in pursuit for true feelings, to show my child the strength of love.

Cinderella - Lainsil Version

What makes Cinderella one of the happiest woman ever exists in the fairy tales? The shoe or the Prince?

Everyone, regardless of the gender, in this universe is Cinderella. Fitting in the right glass shoes magically transforms her into a beautiful maiden who glows with charisma...

The step-sisters who tried to fit in the glass shoes, which were not meant for them, struggled to fit, however, they will never get the magical effects.

In this real world, everyone make their choices and decisions, to conclude their lives with magical moments.

Some spent their lifetimes trying to fit in to the over sized, or undersized shoes. They either developed corns overtime due to the uncomfortable tightness, or they damaged the pretty shoes due to long dragging along the unfitted shoes.

Are they wrong in the decisions? It depends on how you perceive it.

Most people tried to fit in the shoes that they purchased (for any reasons, impulsiveness, thorough thinking, immaculate calculation on the odds) and insisted their first decision was right. Even if their toes grew painful corns, they allow themselves to slump in to state of denial, as their decision MUST be right. Even if they damaged the shoes which would be otherwise better fitted on others' feet, they insisted the shoes were right for them.

Not many people has the opportunity like Cinderella, who was blessed with good Fairy God Mother, who created the chance for her to dance with her Prince Charming, thus left the shoe behind as clues to lead her to the way of ever after happiness. When chanced upon her, the fairy tale would be non-existent, should she had not chosen to grab the chance. Although gathering the items to form magical horse-rider, horses and chamber carts were through hard efforts, as she was poor, it all proved worthwhile as she had the most memorable evening...

Everyone has the right to be Cinderella though. Her wait was after all worth the while. Just when she thought her dream was only one evening, and departure was at the strike of midnight clock... Soon, she was rewarded with the right shoe which fitted her foot perfectly, and comfortably, which transformed her to the gracious maiden.

The shoe had enhanced her, as she enhanced the shoe. Just when we were happy for Cinderella, we should not neglect the shoe, should the shoe be able to speak, it would declare itself as the happiest shoe too.

Amazing? The Prince in my story is secondary? Not exactly. The Prince is the goal and objective to Cinderella, everything would be meaningless if the Prince had not been who Cinderella wanted.

We all have a choice to play the role of step-sisters, or Cinderella. Nobody's right or wrong, it's just a matter of choice.

For myself, I want to be my very own Cinderella, and want my shoe to be Cinderella as well.

To live a living fairy tale, I must meet my shoe and Cinderella. When I pick the shoe, I am playing Cinderella, vice versa, I am also the shoe being selected by my Cinderella. Only with the same mindset, Cinderella would live.

The shoe took a long time before it reached Cinderella, how many wrong feet had it fitted on before it finally met Cinderella? We can perceive this as the saying 'Life is not a bed of roses, even if it is, no one get away from being unscathed'

My choice is to fit in the right shoe, otherwise, I would rather go bare-footed. As I don't meet Fairy God Mother, no extra bonus for my efforts, however, with my mind and heart, I know my beliefs, I know my directions.

Being bare-footed is pathetic. Why do I still choose this unsheltered path? No doubt, being bare-footed, I am not in the luxury of walking the rocky earthly life-path, I may get cut by some broken glasses, rusty nails or bitten by poisonous insects. But I am giving my feet what it deserve, the experience of life, and not settling for less treatment. Wouldn't it be a burden for my poor feet if I reluctantly compromise with the wrong shoes?

The step-sisters who were overwhelmed with jealousy over Cinderella would be their own Cinderella if they were able to adopt the positive attitude. Should the sisters insisted on grabbing on the shoe which was meant for Cinderella, they probably had made a choice to murder Cinderella's fairy tale, an unhappy shoe, painful feet and a lonely Prince. It's still a choice though.

The moral of my story is.. Everyone decides own path, no definite right or wrong, it's a matter of how you want to live your life. To relate my story more relevantly, think about the people we know around us, how many play the role of step-sisters? Many? Does it explain why more people are getting dissatisfied with living on this originally beautiful world?

Bearable Pain

One immediate physical and mental sensation that we probably can't ignore is Pain.

It's amazing to discover that Pain can be bearable, if we choose to manage our mindset properly.

Scenario:

When a patient walks in to the operation theater, he will scan through the apparatus on the surgery tray, and the medical equipment. Following that, he will observe the faces of the people in the OT, including the surgeon. These actions are all normal reaction of a human instinct, yet all derives from the fear factors.

Similarly, when I walked into the surgical room, I did all the above. The apparatus looked unfriendly, as were the equipment. When fear arose, I started to see shadows of triggering pain from the surgeon's and nurses' face. After all, they were the ones who were going to use those stuffs on me, hence, I couldn't help but felt at their mercy.

The strange thing is that when you allow fear to engulf you, the slightest pain appears most intolerable.

The threshold level for pain dips down to its lowest, and before you really feel anything, you are mentally hurt and subconsciously expecting pain.

It all happened to me as well, but in a fast thought, I figured that fear devil was trying to play a trick on me. I chose to confront it face up.

I chose to believe that the surgeon and medical staff had no reason to instill pain to me, as I was the one who approached them for help, and they were simply rendering such assistance. Looked again at the medical apparatus and equipment, I discovered that they were not at all unfriendly, they looked helpful instead. They were not invented and developed to create pain and sufferings, they were made to solve problems of suffering patients.

In the middle of the procedure, I experienced sensations of physical torment, but they were all very bearable. Mind over matters, indeed, it helped overcome physical pain. Knowing and appreciating the efforts of the people who were inevitably caused the pain you underwent, made you realized that you can lessen pain if you wish to.

I focused myself and gathered the strength to overcome, by engaging thoughts of good moments, and allow love to do anesthetic work. Perhaps I was a little too distant away from reality, my eyes glimmered with thoughts of sweetness. It puzzled the surgeon, and the surgeon asked if I was enjoying pain. Funny, but practical question. I merely said that I was handling and enduring pain.

Now I understand better. Willing to accept the goodness of human nature, that no one would hoped to inflict pain onto another. Things happened as they were meant to, it's about coping with them in a positive approach.

When you visualize that everything in life is worth the efforts, even the pain suffered is worth. I had learnt a new lesson today, hadn't I?

When Hi becomes too difficult, and Goodbye a relief

'Hi' signifies a greeting tailed with a good feeling
While 'Goodbye' refers to departure tailed with sad feeling

There is so much knowledge about human feelings
How many of us are capable of retaining and sustaining the initial feelings we have for others?

Recently, I witnessed a couple undergoing drastic changes in their lives
When their paths crossed, some 13 years back,
'Hi' was what they both wished to say to each other, as often as they could
and 'Goodbye' was a dreaded moment, when they ended each meeting

Today, 'Hi' and 'Goodbye' took a reverse role
'Hi' seems too difficult now
'Goodbye' a relief

Did I come so far to say 'Hi' or 'Goodbye'?? I asked myself..

Human Signal

Human interaction and attraction are amazing

In a split second, you thought you had connected with someone
Just as you planned to explore deeper into this person
It seemed like the connection was just a fleeting static
Perhaps there was an interrupting satelite transceiver around the area
or, it was merely a mistaken signal trasmitted in error

On the contrary, someone who has been around you for a long time
Yet you fail to notice the quality in him
Perhaps it was just too comfortable, that you neglected exploration
or, it was connecting to you too smoothly, you didn't even see any sparks

This kind of situation continues to move in a circular motion
Living, is consistent search for connecting signal

Have I sent out myself to you yet?
Have you turned on the receiver yet?
Or was the signal unable to be received in your receiving mode?
Infra-red? Blue-tooth?
Maybe, its all automated..
Let's all wait for the next signal...

Flows of Expectations

Children are our little Zen masters - forever teaching us the wonder of being in the moment, accepting what life offers.

When we quit struggling with the way we think things should be and stop resisting their lessons, we can learn to appreciate the wonder-uptions of life.

Wonder uptions are not just for parents; anytime we release our expectations of how things should be, we can go with the flow of what is, and we can appreciate the joy in even the simplest moments.

True Love, True Happiness

It is of prime importance that we do all in our power to keep thinking positive thoughts
This will ensure that we can stay as happy people

A bad self-image says "I don't deserve".
This leads to a person subconsciously sabotaging his own happiness
Whenever goodness come along
he will either consciously or subconsciously find reasons why it can't be done
This is bad impact on self worth

Positive thinking helps to build up your self confidence
To receive all goodness given to you
It enables you to be able to appreciate the goodness bestowed to you

Negative thinking hinders you from enjoying the great goodness meant for you
Instead of embracing the good love,
You are spending every effort and time to try to look out for faults
Because you are convinced that there is no way such good things can happen to you
Therefore, you started to find the fine cracklines
and then you let out a reliving breath and said 'ahh.. see I know it's can't be that perfect'

Hey, if we adopted a good positive mindset
Then, the scenerio changed
When the perfect someone/something appears before us
We work every possible to sustain and maintain that goodness
We will have no time to fish out negative small tiny imperfections
soon, even the imperfections appear to be part of the greatness

Which would you like for your life?
My dear, your life concept is critical to maintain good happiness
So I wish to share this information with you
So that you will not resist and reject goodness that are meant for you
They are all spread out in your journey path
Identify them, acknowledge them, receive them with grace

We may be physically apart
But spiritually, we interlinked

We love, and always will
Let not turn your back on this love
and keep it burning in another form
A power to drive you to ultimate happiness

True love, I don't need physical attachment to feel the presence
True love, I only wish my love to be loved
True love, I need not possess my love
True love, I only need to love