Always Good

I may not be the best perfect person alive

Yet, I still want to be always good

I appreciate and I wish to be appreciated

While you heard much of my stories

It may not be difficult to discover my weakness and strength

My weakness being my strength

Many a times, I was taken advantage and granted for my small kindness

The inability to bear a grudge and hold a hatred long enough

It saw me through as a friend worthwhile

Yet, it cost me much opportunities and root to much hurt

Strangely, till now, I am still what I was

I still can't bring myself to hate more than I could

The most I could do was to be oblivious

To cut myself away from being feeling

To be unfeeling towards the world movement around me

To isolate myself away from feelings and emotions

It didn't bring me far enough

I was not happy

I am only happiest when I could create happiness for others

Silly as I may seem to be

I still harbour hope that I would eventually leap on the harvest

I still believe that ultimately, I would be wealthy in spiritual mind and soul

After all, Life Is Soulful

Times after times, friends and lovers failed me

What can I say.. I allowed them to do that to me

I instilled the thinking to them that it's ok for them to fail me

Is it really ok? Doesn't it hurt? you may ask

The truth is.. I am always hopeful, that they all will see one day that it's not ok

It hurts badly each time

Yet each time, I can't bring myself to hate them

Because I, allowed them to do so

But, what can I change?

That's my best comfortable behavior and mindset

To lose hope and faith in people, equate to throwing away the essense of life, the essense of love

What good does an empty shell does, then?

If I can only find true love in the the mixture of great pain, I accept it

If I can only seek true love in the many stabs in heart, I receive it

For only continual sought for true love, may true love be found